When the awakening process begin for me, I really didn’t understand what the heck I was going through, what it should be or how I should feel. Absolutely nothing made sense and I often wondered what it is to feel free and liberated.
I have found myself sorting through my thoughts to discover what freedom represents for me. I feel freedom is to be experienced physically, mentally and spiritually.
For one, to experience freedom on a physical level is to be able to move freely in the body which starts from the inside out. Developing a yoga practice helped me to cultivate a relationship with my body that resulted in self-awareness. This can help to identify where help, or work is needed so action can be taken if you so choose. Everybody is different so this will look different for us all.
However, to be free and liberated on a mental and spiritual level at this point on my journey, I have realized that radical forgiveness and acceptance of self has been one of my biggest developments. Notice I said “Radical.” Like, that’s how serious it has to be.
Radical forgiveness of myself has allowed me to release tons of my emotional baggage which created blockages and stagnation in my life. I had to realize how trapped and void of freedom I felt. I had no clue or concept of freedom at any level of consciousness, spiritually, or physically.
The start of forgiving and accepting myself gave me permission to forgive and even accept others for who they are. People all the way back from my childhood until the present day. My body, heart and spirit held on to years of pain, sorrow, grief, betrayal, anger, bitterness, resentment, guilt, and shame.
I felt betrayed by past friendships, relationships and romantic connections feeling like I always gave more service or support than I received.
I felt shame, guilt, and bitterness for my trauma and I couldn’t understand why I had to go through so many challenges of feeling neglected and misunderstood.
I was angry at having to deal with various disappointments and tragedies and feeling grief and sorrow from the circumstances I had been through.
It was like a maze of unlocking all of this pain and grief and telling myself, girrrrl, it is time to forgive and accept what is.
I had to accept that all of these situations and experiences were for a higher purpose and built character.
I allowed myself to accept my journey of experiencing these issues in order to evolve my state of consciousness, my level of compassion, empathy, and the foundation of my soul.
The more I allowed myself to forgive and accept is when I was able to feel more alive, awakened, and free in my mind and body.
This process has been far from easy, however, it has been the most gratifying and purposeful.
The benefits of forgiveness include spiritual gifts, better relationships and freedom of emotional pain.
In conclusion forgiveness and acceptance of your self and others improves the overall body, mind and spirit.
Until next time…